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Βασικα οχι οτι δεν ενδιαφερομαι,ενδιαφερομαι αλλα τοσο λιγο ωστε να μην ενδιαφερθω.Δεν ξερω αν με πιανεις σε εχω δει πως τα πιανεις αυτα καμια φορα.Δεν με νοιαζει αν αυτο που βλεπω ειναι ασχημο , δεν μου κανει αισθηση πλεον.Αλλα γιατι να ΠΡΕΠΕΙ να μου κανει?Επειδη αυτο επιδιωκεις? Χερομαι που βρισκεις τον χρονο ,ισως και εγω να τον εχω αλλα δεν με νοιαζει. Τωρα το κατα ποσο ειναι αστειο αυτο, ναι....ειναι αλλο θεμα...ποτε δεν θα πω οχι στο γελιο,στην κλαψα ισως...ΔΕΝ ΞΕΡΩ ΑΝ ΜΕ ΠΙΑΝΕΙΣ.Ενιγουει...αν δεν καταλαβαινεις θα σου πω εγω ποσο αστειο ειναι.Το να φασκεις και να αντιφασκεις υποθετω πως ειναι χαρακτηριστικο της ηλικιας σου , ναι...γιατι οχι! Το να μιλας για τον εαυτο σου λεγοντας οτι διαφερεις απο τα υπολοιπα παιδια της ηλικιας σου και αυτο της ηλικιας σου ειναι .Ομως ειναι πραγματα που θεωρω οτι δεν ειναι της ηλικιας σου, θελει χρονια εξασκησης κακιας και εγωισμου.Ατομα στην ηλικια της μανας μου το τερματισαν παντως και εσυ απο μικρη στα βαθια.ΜΑ ΤΟΣΟ ΣΥΜΦΕΡΟΝ?Το μονο που εχει σημασια ειναι να χορτασεις το υπερβαρο εγω σου?Ναι και εγω θα παρω την ξεχασμενη φιλη απο το δημοτικο να βγουμε γιατι μολις εμαθα πως κανει παρεα με το γκομενακι που σταμπαρα μπας και το φερει..και εγω θα ριξω ψαρεμα για πραγματα που δεν θα επρεπε να ξερω, και εγω θα βγω με το λαθος ατομο σε καποια φαση που ολες μου οι φιλες θα ειναι κατειλημενες,αλλα θελω να πιστευω πως δεν θα το κανω ποτε μου αθλημα. Επειτα,ασε με να σου πω ενα ακομα χαρακτηριστικο της ηλικιας σου.Δεν ξερεις να χειριζεσαι την ελευθερια που σου δινουν(αν και παραξενο γιατι απο οσο βλεπω μπορεις και χειριζεσε πολλες καταστασεις ΑΝ ΜΕ ΠΙΑΝΕΙΣ).Οι γονεις σου ,σου λενε κλασε , και εσυ ριχνεις χεσιμο στα κρυφα παντα.Γιατι εισαι τοσο μαγκας που το μεθυσι σταματαει λιγο πριν το κατωφλι του σπιτιου σου. Tωρα το πιο αστειο απλα ειναι οτι ειμαι αναγκασμενη να σε δω να ρεζιλευεσε .... οπα σορρυ....να λαμπεις ηθελα να πω.

Ανδρέας Μιχελιουδάκης.

Παράξενες μέρες έρχονται τώρα, πράγματα παράξενα θα γίνουνε σε λίγο τώρα που πια οι άνθρωποι δε με κοιτάζουνε στα μάτια κι ενώ Φαρσέρ πανέξυπνο ι με πλησιάζουνε κάθε μέρα γεμάτοι μ’υποσχέσεις ή απειλές, όλοι δολοΦόνοι να σκοτώσουν ύπουλα και σιωπηλά με βρόγχους είναι τόσα αυτά που με συνθλίβουν τώρα ακόμα τόσα τα βράδυα που λυπημένος γυρίζω το πρόσωπο στον τοίχο για να κλάψω (κανένας πια δε μου ξορκίζει το κακό) που ούτε κι’ όταν πεθάνω δεν πρόκειται να ησυχάσω, τυμβωρύχοι διαρκώς θα μπαινοβγαίνουν, κοριτσάκια που θα μου Φέρνουνε λουλούδια κι’εγώ τάχατες συγκινημένος θα τα παρασέρνω με κάποια σοκολάτα, συνωμότες τα μεσάνυχτα θα χτυπούνε συνθηματικά «άνοιξε, το σύνθημα είνΆΙΜΑ», , όλη νύχτα συμπλοκές σε μισοσκότεινες στοές, συνθλιμένο κρανίο, ανακάτεμα από μεβράνες κι αίμα τον βρήκαν παγωμένο το πρωί, κάποιος ύστερα που Φεύγει τοίχο-τοίχο, με ύποπτη βιασύνη, πανικός σα πάχνη τον φώτιζε καθώς άρχιζε να Φεύγει, τ’άσπρο πουκάμισο του δολοΦόνου που λένε, κάποτε-κάποτε οι Φίλοι που προβάλλουνε στα όνειρα μ’ένα πλήθος άσπρα σκουλίκια στα μαλλιά ν’αργοκουνιέται και ν’αναδύεται σιωπηλό, και η νεκρή μου ερωμένη, το κουΦάρι της νεκρής ερωμένης που δεν πέθωε ακόμη, οι Φίλοι στις ονειρώξεις που προτρέπουν σε κοινής ωΦελείας απαγχονισμούς γενικεύοντας τα έσω, το αίμα αντί για τους ανθρώπους που δεν μπορούν να μας ανήκουν, ανατριχιάζοντας που οι άνθρωποι μονάχα στον εαυτό τους μπορούνε ν’ανήκουν, ενώ οι θλιβερές μεταπτώσεις ‘αρρωστημένου δολοΦόνου παντιέρα στ’αδιέξοδο, εντοπίζοντας τον πόνο, παντιέρα στ’αδιέξοδο, ενοχές, ενοχές… Σ’αγαπώ εδώ μέρες παράξενες έρχονται.

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Τέτοια σιωπή που ότι ήταν πριν ποτέ ξανά δεν θα' ναι απ' τον ξεσκισμένο ψίθυρο μιας λέξης χωρίς παρελθόν να' χει πει πάρα πολλά μην μπορώντας άλλο κάνοντας όρκο να μη σιωπήσει πια

Akoma

Akoma to axti mou na vgalw
akoma tis skepseis mou na pniksw.
To kako sou den to skeutomai..to kalo sou thelw ..ala isws auto kiolas na mh sou axizei.
SOU AXIZEI NA MATHEIS... na matheis...

Na patheis oti epatha ...gia na niwseis...auto..auto pou eniwsa.

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Its like the same day and I can not fall asleep today

all I hear is scream and they never will go away. ahh

I can not explain how much plesure this has giving me

and I will not stop untill the day I do not see

I found way to cure this demon insides of me

by eating all the people that I see or meet

and then he'll leave me be and then Ill be free

but untill the day come, I will enjoy my feed

I still remember the first day when he came to me

he was so weak and told me that he needed me

I took him in and now were friend, such a good mate

he taught how to kill and how to make it look great

I started small, knocking doors someone help me

and if they let me in, all you heard was one scream

this is a dream for me, I am something more then you

I am something that you never thought or think to do

I am my own god with no morals and I feel no pain

and every time I hear a scream it is something so aquite

I want more to do, I want to share my world

by ending urs, and doin what I was sent for

hey gurl .. its the devils son, no words spoke, like I have your thouge

come a lil closer if u want my fun. tick tock babe where u gona run

mind is a precious thing, dont u think. staring at ur body

and I want ur meat. and I want ur soul, and I want you so.

plz don't fight what u know is so eatable

I'm in a calm mood, blood is dripping down my face

such a perfect time, as if it is my birthday

it is my birthday, wish me happy birthday

I will go find new gift and I will have a worlds play

haha I just made a game wanna come play with me

u gotta run away and hope I don't find the'

but if I do find the' then I will own the'

bring u to my home and then we will have more fun see

I am a dirty god and I can not be content 

and ever time I take a life it fulls with such confidence

I am a new breed, something like a dyeing king

the last few minutes u lived, I know u worshiped me

εντ ναου?

                                                                             

Pera apo tis gnostes klise laikes atakes.... uparxoun merikes pou me kanoun na simfwnw apolita... opws auth " Ston trelo an peis oti einai trelos,den prokite na se pistepsei".

Kala otan den  se niazei.. oti o alos den vlepei pio makria apo tin mith tou...se niazei mono na skotwseis ligo apo ton xrono sou.To lathos einai otan tha arxisei na se niazei....kai to lathos pou akolouthei einai otan tha kaneis kati gia auto.

Eimai 18 xronwn (ade Septemvrh klinw ta 19 amin ) kai thewrw...oti eimai toso mikrh!Xerw tosa liga pou den borw na pistepsw i na amfisvitisw to otidipote.Trww ta moutra mou akoma,enthousiazomai eukola,denomai eukola (kirios sto thema filias).Kai ola auta epidi i embiries mou itan liges oste na mou dwsoun kati xrisimo. (kala nai exw mathei xrisima pragmata...pragma pou den  simenei oti exw mathei na zw kiolas)

Na kati xrisimo (simvoulh ston eauto mou : arxh ths paranias).

Eimai atomo pou piezei katastaseis...idika ama thelw kati poli kanw ta pada ... kanw oti pernaei apo xeri mou(auto isws na xrisimeuei kapou...sthn ekdikitokotita mou h stin prospathia mou gia na petixw tous stoxous mou)

pragma pou den einai aparetita kalo...filies pou den htan kales gia emena palepsa na tis kratisw akoma kai an ixera pws  mono analonomai se autes xoris kanena adalagma.

Perito pleon thewrw to komati tou  "bla bla" gia na eimai ilikrinis.

An o alos sou dinei eks arxhs simadia oti kati den paei kala ,den prepei pote na ta prospernas.

Auto to : THA ALAXEI  

einai ena psema pou sinexos xernas kai to ksanamasas,piezodas ton eauto sou na to xonepsei.Enas anthrwpos pou den exei sinaisthish twn praksewn tou, oso kai na tou zalizeis to kefali den prokite na to katalavei. Isa isa auto pou anamenete na ginei einai na ton kouraseis, an einai kiolas ilithios isws kai na ton thixeis, kai an katafereis to deutero...ehmmm auto pou lene mh fovase ton kako  ala ton ilithio to exeis akousei ? (nai kialh klise ataka)AKRIVOS AUTO OMWS

O ilithios xanei kai ta oria tou.. tha arxisei na aminete xoris kan na tou kaneis epithesh,kai tote tha beneis sthn diadikasia skepseis kai ta vasanizeis ton eauto sou me anapadita erwtimata tipou : 

"pws alakse etsi ? "

H mikrh ala distixos arketa alithinh ekdoxh einai ... oti pote den alakse.. pada htan autos pou htan.Auto to atomo pou esu latreues thaumazes kai agapouses...den htan alo atomo ...to idio htan..apla me ton kairo sou dinete h eukairia na deis spithamh pros spithami to eswteriko tou. 

No more time to waste!

Τα βράδυα το κρεβάτι μου γεμίζει

με διάφορα άτομα που δεν τα ξέρω
που με φιλάνε με χείλια σα φίδια
και βολεύονται στην παγωνιά μου
και τα χαράματα τότε που οι ανομολόγητες
οι ενοχές αρχίζουν και μποχάρουν και το φιλί που έπαιρνα όλη νύχτα
βγάνει πλοκάμια κι’απλώνεται μέσα μου
να με σαπίσει
συνειδητοποιώ πως
όλους αυτούς που στο μισοσκόταδο .
της νέας μέρας
τους ικετεύω ψυθιριστά να γυρίσουν πάλι
και να με πάρουν ξανά απ’το χέρι,
να με σεργιανίσουν όπως παιδάκι
σε πλατείες με πολύχρωμα φώτα, όλους αυτούς ουσιαστικά τους έχω απορρίψει. 

Somebody tell me

There is a feeling I can't hide
It leaves me bored and black inside
There was a story I once knew
It started with me and ended with you

Somebody tell me
Where did we go wrong
This is not the world that I remember
I once believed
That we had a future
Now I'm afraid that I am not so sure

So this allegory for life
Predicts that passion turn to strife
You say what you get is what you see
I'm sorry if I disagree 

just to remember

Κρατάς αμυνες.. Και θέλεις να δείχνεις περισσότερο επιθετική για να μην ξανα πληγωθεις. Πολλές φορές πιστεύεις πως ζεις στον δικο σου κόσμο και κανένας δεν μπορει να σε καταλάβει απόλυτα ακόμα και όσοι σε ξέρουν πολυ καλα. Ακόμα και οι γονείς σου. Είσαι ρομαντική αλλα φοβάσαι να το δείξεις για να μην παρεξηγηθεις. Μπορεί να λες πως δεν σε νοιάζει η γνώμη των άλλων   . Αλλα η αλήθεια είναι πως δεν γνωρίζεις ούτε εσυ τον εαυτο σου ακόμα. Δεν ξέρεις ποια είσαι και τι θέλεις στην ζωη σου και χρειάζεσαι καμια φορα επιβράβευση απο τους γύρω σου ακόμα και όταν δεν είναι άτομα που σε ενδιαφέρουν, για να έρθεις ποιο κοντα με τον εαυτό σου. Ισχύουν όλα αυτα ;

To tipota einai arketo.

Glwsses sapismenes apo to idio tous to dilitirio,me potisan me ta farmakera tous logia isws thn alithia,isws ...kai na mhn htan omws....den to skeutika pote mou kala.
Xeria skeletomena, mou xeskisan thn sarka gia na dw ti eimai....h gia na dw ti nomizoun pws eimai....
Maties gemato misos h akoma kai fthono gia agnostous logous me xegimnosan kai  me ekanan na ligisw pali stin mizeria mou. San na eixan xilia kai na mou fonazan na katsw katw ekei pou anikw.


Ma den anikw ekei to gnwrizw....exw pola na pw kai na dwsw....Ekei pou zhtas mia eukairia thimase atoma pou pragmatika thn aksizan kai den tous dothike apo pouthena,ta katasparaksan ta agrimia kai ta paratisan sto pio krio xadaki exadlimena, gia na afisoun thn teleftea tous pnoi.

Tipota...ma tipota ston kosmo...den exw sunadisei pio skotino, pio kako, pio upolo apo to mualo enos koblexikou..enos pou den niwthei kala me ton eauto tou....
Pou tha se prosvalei gia na niwseis opws niwthei..Den xerw isws na ta kataferan kai na me gemisan kai emena koblex ...ala den exw dunamh ...na kanw ton alo na niwsei eripio gia auto pou einai (gia emfanish gia gnoseis gia to otidipote).

O koblexikos tha se xtipisei padou...akoma kai gia thn foni sou akoma kai gia thn patousa sou pou esu apo beba vriskeis xaritomenh...OXI OTI OLA AUTA PANW SOU EXOUN KATI ARNITIKO...ala autos prospathei polu na vrei kati opote me to na se xtipaei padou evelpistei na se petixei kapou.

Akoma kai an den se petixe sta pio pola...to ena apo mono tou nai, den einai tipota..ala ola mazi..se kanoun rako.Den ta exw akousei mia fora...2 fores...ala 500 giati tuxainei na mhn htan kai liga ta agrimia pou ekanan thn epithesh tous.

Arwstimene kosme ...me aidiazeis.....

Exei fwnh...den fwnazei ,omws sou milaei.... 

kai akou ti sou leei...akou !

Den fwnazei ala prepei na akouseis....gia esena....gia ton eauto sou ...AKOU.

Den fwnazei ...ala tha to kanei an xriastei...kai an to kanei....tha poneseis....

Akou!!!!!

(p.s. ....oses fores den exw akousei...mia mikrh fwnoula mesa mou pou me proidopoiei gia kathe atomo..... thn exw pathsei...pleon...den xerw an ematha...giati mathenw  simenei oti tis skepseis mou  tis kanw kai praxeis..pantws katalava ..... auto einai to mono sigouro.....)

in love with a criminal

He is a hustler
He's no good at all
He is a loser, he's a bum, bum, bum, bum
He lies, he bluffs
He's unreliable.
He is a sucker with a gun, gun, gun, gun

I know you told me
I should stay away.
I know you said
He's just a dog astray.
He is a bad boy with a tainted heart
And even I know this a'int smart

But mama im in love with a criminal

And this type of love

Isn't rational, it's physical

Mama please don't cry

I will be alright

All reasons inside

I just cant deny

Love the guy

Thelei dunamh na arnitheis ,na peis to oxi!

Me aformh ena peristatiko edw sto hrakleio kritis, stous dromous pou egw exw megalwsei thelhsa na grapsw.

Exei na kanei me mia kopela molis 16 xronwn , me mia didimh aderfh kai duo goneis pou den ediksan pote oti den niazode, alla kathe alo.Skeptomenh  loipon to peristatiko siniditopoihsa pws mia kai mono stigmh, monaxa liga deuterolepta arkoun gia na sou alaksoun thn zwh, ena "NAI" mia sou proxeirh apofash einai ikanh na se petaksei sthn akrh tou dromou etoimothanath , kai apo pantou pligomenh afinodas sou sidrofia mono skies.

Oloi zhtame kapia stigmh na viosoume thn diadikasia ths koinonikopoihshs, na gnorisoume kosmo , na niwseis arestos. Oxi aparetita na kaneis filous, apla na niwseis oti eisai simadiko melos se mia parea.Gia na mhn polulogw opws kai oloi oi ipolipoi etsi kai auth h kopela,oi anages tou kathenos diaferoun kai erxode kai ginode vasikoi paragodes gia tis epiloges mas.

Ena koritsi pou molis katafere na patisei gh ,arpakse thn zwh apo ta mallia.To sunaisthima tou kindinou thn ksegelase, thn ekane na pistevei oti zei entona enw sthn ousia riskare thn zwh ths.Auto pou ithele htan mia zwh gemato adenalinh.

Agoria me to dithen " cool" leksilogio , me thn katavathos dilh kai fthinh magia tous, mixanakia , hip hop sigrotimata , ipotithemena kone kai parees arkoun gia na ediposiasoun ena koritsi mikrhs ilikias pou toso laxtara na entaxthei se mia parea gia na parei dinamh.

Den argisan na ginoun protaseis gia xorto opou  diskola arnise otan niwtheis  pws pleon exeis ginei ena me tin parea kai i sinidish sou  exei papsei na einai dikh sou ....ala ... ths pareas.Oxi den htan eukolo na arnithei  ton kindino otan ta idia atoma pou auth thaumazei ton apaksionoun toso proklitika.

Isws mia fwnh mesa ths na ourliaze na stamatisei ala mallon san psithiros ixouse sta autia ths.

Afou pleon eixe papsei na niazete gia tous "aplous " gia authn kindinous, den distase na proxorisei se isxiriterous.

Prosfata to kalokairi afou idi eixe idi ethistei se diafores ousies dextike protash apo prwhn erwtiko ths sidrofo gia endoflevia xorigish iroinhs. H 16xronh kopela dextike... apo auto to "NAI" pou eipe alakse thn zwh ths rizika.Den htan omws oti den ths dothike h eukairia na pei oxi... ths dothike kai thn exase.To sigouro einai pantws oti den htan h monh eukairia pou ths parousiastike gia na pei oxi, h zwh htan eugenikh mazi ths, den thn petakse apo ta psila sta xamila xoris na to perimenei..To epidiokse, to kinigise.Den thn adikise h zwh.H 16xronh vrethike lupothimh gia megalo xroniko diastima opou akoma kai ota anoikse ta matia ths den eixe ton elegxo tou swmatos ths. Zouse evlepe akouhe,anepnaie egklovismenh se ena nekro soma.Adinatouse na kanei thn paramikrh kinish. O prwin ths ekmetaleuomenos thn katastash ths thn xrisimopoihse ws eidos plirwmhs gia agora ousiwn.Thn metefere krifa se 3 diaforetikes perioxes tou irakliou ths kriths...se 3 diaforetika spitia, opou sinaixizan na potizoun ton idi epivarimeno organismo tis me ales ousies  para thn thelish .Ala auth ti fora... DEN BORESE NA PEI TO OXI POU EPREPE NA EIXE PEI NORITERA.Thn viasan epanilimenes fores 15  atoma. Eksafanismenh 3 oloklires meres makria apo to spiti tis xoris ixnos zwhs na exei afisei pisw ths.

Thn 3h mera afou sinilthe kalese ton patera ths na thn mazepsei apo mia makrinh perioxh tou irakliou pou thn eixan paei kai adinatouse na girisei monh ths.Den eipe tipota to kratise mistiko gia ena mikro xroniko diastima merikwn imerwn.

H 16xronh apeuthinthike entromh sto astinomiko tmhma opou ekei dilose toxikomanhs.Katedwse olous osous thn viasan, akoma kai ton prwhn ths o opoios sthn sunaixia arnithike thn sumetoxh tou se olo auto.

Sta prwta kiolas xronia ths efivias ths katelikse swmatika kai psixika viasmenh. Mana , korh kai aderfh anagastikan na apomakrinthoun apo thn Ellada ,afinontas pisw filous , sinithies, tropo zwhs , spiti kai akoma xirotera ton patera tous pou emine pisw gia na doulepsei.

Anarotiemai poso  simadepse thn kardia oxi mias efivis, ena enos paidiou akoma, pou mono anagh apo agaph kai storgh ithele. Poso simadepse olh thn oikogeneia pou me toso diskolia thn eferan sthn zwh.

Einai dinaton h anagh sou gia agaph na sou kanei toso kako ?Pws zeis meta ?

Makari na eixes pei oxi.....se kathe sou epilogh...ala pistevw pws kamia dokimasia den mas dinete otan

o theos pistevei pws den tha thn adeksoume....osh dinamh boreis...euxomai olopsixa ta panta na pane kala stin zwh sou. Kai na vrethoun ta swsta atoma na se stiriksoun

Hitler

Poia.... ma....thelw na rwthsw ... POIA EIMAI EGW POU THA KRINW OTI DEN BOREIS NA  KANEIS TIPOTA KALITERO?
poso kakomathimenh eimai? poso rixos anthrwpos? les kai egw eimai kaliterh...egw as poume pou mporw giati den to kanw?  I tha htan alazoniko na pisteva oti to kanw?
Eimai toso kourasmenh...ala tha akousw , tha psaxtw... to kserw oti to kanw....
Pou kanw lathos loipon.....
Giati mesa stis simfores mou emfanizode kai ta dika mou sfalmata i adinamies....
Pistevw akradanta oti... kathe mas ebiria mas erxete epidi thn exoume anagh...epidi  kati exei na mas dwsei... Opote meta apo kathe ti pou me ponaei ....anarotiemai  ti lathos ekana auth th fora loipon? Giati sinevei auto?
Opou ftew na to ftiaksw,giati den thelw alo pono....
PONAEI... PONAEI POLU an den boroun oi aloi na paroun ton pono makria mou , tha ton parw egw.


Skeptomenh loipon ta provlimata mou, oi luseis fernoun alages, alages sthn zwh mou. Katorthosa na vgw apo to mauro kai na ftasw edw pou enas theos xerei pou eftasa..ala toulaxiston den kindinevw.


 Kai esu ti? Axriste-h pou na petheneis den tha kaneis tipota! Ilithie-a pou doulepses sklira osa xronia zeis dipla mou na katastrepseis  kai thn paramikri mellodikh pithanotita na ta pame kala.Pou prwta skotwneis esena...kai meta opoion einai dipla sou.Se katakrinw? auto niwtheis?
Kai auto pou niwthw egw? Den metraei? Mono h party sou exei xoro edw?

Thn paramikrh allagh den ekanes pote sou.etsi gia na pw oti re pousti toulaxiston autos o anthrwpos prospathise gia emena. Ala den aksiothikes na sikwseis ton kolo sou gia emena.Valta ston kolo sou ta prasina sou ta xartakia,den eixa auta anagh. TERAS.
Aidia gemizeis to mialo mou!  Pws boreis anenoxlitos na arazeis THN ARIDA SOU SIXAMENE-H otan ksereis pws toso kairo ola skata ta kaneis ...


Eunouxismeno anthrwpaki .......
Liph trefw gia esena.

My beloved enemy mesa apo tis staxtes louloudia den anthizoun

Kaliteroi mou daskaloi den einai autoi pou me stirixan kai
me agapisan.Einai autoi pou me misisan kai kako prospathisan
na mou kanoun.Einai autoi pou me ponesan , pou me ligisan , pou
stoxo to evalan na me katastrepsoun , pou me koitousan gemato aidia,
,autoi pou mou eipan psemata , autoi pou me rezilepsan.

Se esas xrostaw oti ematha gia ton skatenio kosmo....kai twra pou xerw
borw na proxorisw ... ala mesa apo tis staxtes louloudia den anthizoun.

Paidia tou Rasputin enothite!

Den eimai oute xristianh oute voudistria oute paganistria oute tipota. Eimai oti egrinei i dikh mou logikh , apo thn alh , xoris na amfisvitw tipota. Oles oi thriskies  eksalou exoun polu endiaferonta minimata na sou dwsoun kai simpiptoun sto idio apotelesma oles oi thriskies " Gine kalos anthrwpos kai mirase agaph ".


Kai o xristianismos exei poli endiaferonta pragmata na psaxeis. Logia polu sofa , logia pou kathisixazoun tin psixh  kai iperterei i ousia ths zwhs ,mias kai  oloi agaph psaxnoume.
Tha  agaphsw thn istoria tou... ala  asximes skepseis mou erxode sto mialo otan vlepw tragopapades na vgenoun sthn thleorash kai na iperaspizode aidies pou se kanoun na xaneis thn ousia tou xristianismou.
"O theos tha timorisei autous pou ekapsan ton nao...ton iero xoro tou Kiriou
kai tha tous vasanizei gia oso xriastei kai osoi den paradigmatistoun apo dafton  kai xlevasoun thn istoria mou tha vroun kai auth ton bela tous"
etsi thimamai na eixe pei enas papas sthn tv otan imoun dhmotiko kai me eixe tromokratisei auth tou h kouveda giati pisteva oti o,ti kai na ekana tha me timorouse .Eixe valei vevea kai i thriska i giagia mou to xeri tis gia auto kai eniwtha toso tromokratimenh.


Ala sizitontas me tin mana mou meta apo kapia xronia mou edwse na katalavw oti.... o theos den exei anthrwpina sunaisthimata gia na niothei thn anagh na ekdikithei... den einai timoros exei agna sunaisthimata pros olous mas.Den sigrinode me auta tou anthrwpou.Ekei pou o anthrwpos gia logous adinamias  den sigxorei o enas ton alo o theos to kanei. Kai nai exei dikio i mama Cadaverous...

Ara loipon afou xehorisame tis vasikes diafores theou kai anthrwpou boroume na sunaixisoume.


As thimithoume  oloi to musical me titlo " JESUS CHRIST SUPER STAR" nai nai, to prwto vgike to 1973, vasizomeno sthn istoria tou Ihsou Xristou me rock mousikh apo asimous kalitexnes.(me elaxista satirika stoixia ...toso diakritika...katholou prosvlitika)

Otan  kikloforise ston elliniko kinimatografo  papades apo kathe akrh ths elladas eixan stithei wres noritera ekso apo kathe cinema kai den afinan ton kosmo na perasei na dei to musical.Poso mikromialoi anthrwpoi uparxoun ? POSO??????

Oxi oti thelw na minw ekei.... ala me aformh auto to musical pou einai ta agapimena mou.... erxete kai  mia aporia pou sinexws prokalei fagoura ston eggefalo. Sto musical auto ta sinaisthimata tou Iouda apikonizode teleia...oles oi tipseis pou eniwse  otan edwse ton Xristo....
kai as skeutoume oloi simfwna me tin istoria pou xeroume , o  Ioudas kremastike (autoktonise ) apo tis idies tou tis skepseis pou ton vasanizan...kai erxomai kai lew se ti simio borei na eftase enas anthrwpos gia na skotwsei ton eauto tou apo tipseis...Poso polu prepei na eniwse asxima? Kai tonizw pws milame gia ena atomo pou den eixe to thio mesa tou .... ala htan anthrwpos opws oloi mas , kai lathoi san auta tou Iouda paramenoun anthrwpina... I adidrash tou aitiologite apo fovo... fovo pou exei odigisei olous mas se anapodies.


                                                                            JUDAS

Jesus!
You've started to believe
The things they say of you
You really do believe
This talk of God is true

And all the good you've done
Will soon be swept away
You've begun to matter more
Than the things you say

Listen Jesus
I don't like what I see
All I ask is that you listen to me
And remember
I've been your right hand man all along
You have set them all on fire
They think they've found the new Messiah
And they'll hurt you when they find they're wrong

Listen Jesus, do you care for your race?
Don't you see we must keep in our place?
We are occupied
Have you forgotten how put down we are?
I am frightened by the crowd
For we are getting much too loud
And they'll crush us if we go too far
If we go too far

Listen Jesus to the warning I give
Please remember that I want us to live

stixoi san autoi me ekanan na katalavw tis amfivolies tou, ton fovo tou . Thn diki tou optikh gonia.

 Pws...pws borite na mas mpanizete minimata loipon, nai esis tis eklisias, pou den tirite oi idioi...

Pane genies oloklires  pou exoun tirisei to ethimo " na keme ton Iouda to pasxa" ena arketa kanivalistiko  ethimo  pou krivei poli misos gia enan anthrwpo pou efige apo ton kosmo mas gemato tipseis kai stenaxoria...Anti na exoun ena ethimo pou na  dilonei tin kathisixash ths psixis tou  , xronia twra ton kremame kai meta ton keme , les kai ekane to sovaro amartima. Se mia poria tou Xristou pou eixe idi apofasistei to pws tha kataliksei o Ioudas vrethike THIMA kai oxi THITHS.O Xristos katevike sthn gh GIA NA FIGEI...itan kati pou oloi ixeran... auth htan h poria tou... o Ioudas vrethike apla to pioni tis ipothesis pou edwse tin troph pou eprepe na parei i poria tou Xristou.Kai apla  anarotieme etimothanatoi kologeroi me rasa..... pws borite na mas lete na sigxoroume o enas ton alo otan  ena ekklisiastiko ethimo einai auto tou Iouda pws mas leete na agapame  o enas ton alo otan  dexeste esis  na vaftisete alodapous , i esto na tous valete stin ekklisia sas , pou apo opou kai an sas piasw vromate. Milate kai fereste san  kakovoula gerontia gemato dilitirio, fasistaria mexri to kokalo. 

Tipseis.

Elpizodas na vreis mia gefira na peraseis...na sou dwsei kouragio den vriskeis kamia, prepei na stamatiseis na elpizeis loipon ?Prepei na se dokimasei o theos mexri na mhn adexeis alo gia na sou dwsei ena xeri voithias? An einai  etsi na tou pite pws exw paretithei polu kairo twra...kai auto to xeri pote den emfanistike.Den paretithika perimenodas apla thn voithia na katevei apo ton ourano ala palepsa gia oti ithela na apoktisw kai metea vevea to mono pou katafera na kanw einai na xasw thn energia pou eixa... twra pia eimai kourasmenh kai apogoiteumenh.Anarotiemai an exei xehasei mono emena.......

Otan to mesa katareei niothw pws sto mono pou pleon borw na dwsw ta pada einai h epifania.Gialistera rouxa , entono make up , o aeras pou vgazw , o tropos pou mhlaw , to malli mou .Ala to eksoteriko mou me to eswteriko mou erxode se mia aiwnia sigroush.
Omws.... den tha elega oti to parousiastiko mou einai pseutiko isa isa ....einai akrivos auto pou eimai egw...entono!!! Entono kai proklitiko  proklitiko .


Einai mi fisiologiko na les mi metanioneis gia tipota. An uparxei enas anthrwpos pou na perpataei anemelos xoris tipseis gia ta  dika tou sfalmata i xoris na niwthei adikimenos apo siberifores teratwn pou nomize filous na shkwsei xeri!

(gia na mhn shkwnei kaneis xerei paei na pei pws simfona me tis parapanw perigrafes den uparxei kapio atomo pou na tautizete me autes.. oh nai , distixos gia olous mas )

Apo thn mia skeutese o kathenas dinei oti borei.... ala ti otan den se ikanopoiei auto pou dinei o alos?
Ti otan niwtheis pws den dinei tipota? Ti ginete otan  skeutese oti thelei mono na pairnei kai na mhn dinei? Ekanes mia lathos skepsh ? mia avasimh ipopsia ? KAI TI LOIPON RWTAW? metatrepese esu sto aplisto axaristo axortago koritsaki pou den ektima tipota?
Ma oxi tha orkizomoun pws xerw ton kosmo...tha to orkizomoun. Borw na  aitiologisw me 1000 tropous tis siberifores autes ala...kai pali ta erotimatika tremosvinoun san xalasmenes lampes panw apo to kefali mou.

Ala oxi den dexomai otan egw gia esena tha mirazomoun mexri kai to telefteo piato fagito pou tha mou dinotan h eukairia na faw, pou exw ekseftelistei gia esena xoris na me niaksei , pou exw bei se kindino gia esena gia pragmata pou den me aforoun kan kai to mono pou na eispratw einai i to xamogelo sou pou krivei ikanopoihsh...ikanopoihsh pou me xaropoiei idietera  ala den mou arkei. Ta kanw ola apo thn kardia mou... ala den xereis pou xekina na se exei anagi o alos kai pou kataligei sto na se ekmetalevete (asinidita isws).


Den me anagnorizw pia dipsaw gia kati toso polu.... kai gia auto pou dipsaw , gia auto tremw....


Logia diogonoun tis katastaseis mes to kefali mou isws ta lathos xili prospathoun na me pisoun gia to ti prepei na kanw. Proidopoihseis oti tha faw ta moutra mou kai oti tha se vrw kapia stigmh APENADI MOU ORGANOMENH/O , pragma pou kamia fora kai egw fovamai.


Den tha adeksw ali mia tetia anapodia. Den tha thn adeksw. Otan ola me trwne...evelpistw se auto na pane ola kala...

To karfi

" Arage , mexri poio shmeio mporouse na anteksei? To apomakrunetee olo kai pio polu.San stoxo: ths thelishs sth maxh me ton pono"


"Pws metafrazete sto mualo enos viash i dikastiki tou katadikh ?Eidika an den prokeite gia kapoio teras , enan psuxika arrwsto, alla gia ton anthrwpo ths diplanhs portas, ton oikogeniarxh , ton epaggelmatia me thn strwmenh douleia ton antra me timh "

"Oi perissoteroi an oxi oloi oi katikoi tou San Martino hkseran. Kaneis den mhlise"


"Sta telh tou 20ou aiwna kai stis arxes tou 21ou otan  siglonismenos o politismenos kosmos iperaspizete p.x. :mia Iranh pou katadikastike sthn pinh lithovolismou gia mia moixeia pou den apodeixthke pote , einai anikanos na dei osa sumvenoun sthn pisw aulh tou."

"Kai otan en telei kalitai na parei thesh , isws giati den borei  na kanei diaforetika , tote oi thesmoi litougoun politismena , kai opws armozei."


"O ouranos siwpa . H gh katigorei. Ta xamila spitia tou xoriou egkaloun to ena to allo kai oi fwnes tinazode apo tous toixous kai ta keramidia. Antlounn dinamh . Meta thrumatizodai , trupwnoun katw apo thn porta. Mia fora . Ki oles mazi. Thrinologoun.
- Na fugeis , na xatheis "


"- Poutana (brixwntai)
h anna piezei ta autia me tis palames ths.
- DEN EINAI ALITHIA (ourliazei)
- Poutana (wruetai o anemos "


" To autokinito kanei anastrofh . Pernaei ksana katw apo ta parathira tou laikou spitiou kai ourliazei h gunaika. Ksana. Pio dunata.Travwntas ta fwnhenta.
-Tsoulaaa skateniaa
H anna briskete sto spiti.Klinei ta pantzouria...
- Vromiaraaaaa
Ta lastixa spiniaroun ston erhmo dromo. Einai tris to apogeuma. H nuxta erxete mazi me to  pagero agiazi.Apo to eswteriko tou spitiou den apada kaneis.Den anasenei.
- Vromiaraaaa
ourliazei  h gunaikai . Ki h hxw apada:
-Poutan hsoun kai tha ise  "



"Ekeino to apogeuma h  mana mou eipe na paw na agorasw ola ta xreiazoumena gia thn tourta mou. Thelei na mou ftiaxei mia triorofh me fraoules kai sadigh. Mou dinei leuta egw omws thelw na me kamarosoun etsi oste osoi me sinadisoun na mou dwsoun tis euxes tous. Eimai 13 xronwn se ligous mines tha dwsw exetaseis gia thn trith gumnasiou. Ginomai siga siga gunaika .
Proxoraw kamaroth kai mono otan niwthw fouskomenh apo euxes proxoraw pros to bakaliko gia na agorasw aleuri auga kai th magia. Otan vgainw apo to magazi me ti sakoula agalia erxete dipla mou ena autokinito. Xtupaei to klakson
-Geia sou Anarela gia pou me to kalo ?
Einai o Domenico , o Domenico Cuchinota.Ton gnorizw kai as einai polu megaliteros mou .Exei patisei pia ta 20.
- Geia sou vghka gia psonia exw ta genethlia mou shmera paw spiti twra.
Tou lew perifanh eno strefomai pros to meros tou  ala sinaixizw na vadizw.
To autokinito tou Domenico me akolouthei.Einai kai enas filos tou mazi tou.Legete kai autos Domenico, Domenico Giannelo. Omws den leei leksh. Sto xorio den exei  pote kinish. Badizw arga . Kai to autokinito tou Domenico einai pada dipla mou.
- Ela Annarela , stasou ligo. Ma to ksereis pws eisai omorfh? St'alhtheia omorfh
Xamogelaw
-Ela stasou pia. Thelw na sou euxhuv svsta gia ta genethlia sou
M'exei piasei sto agistri tou
Stekomai sto pezodromio. Sto xeri mou h sakoula me ta psonia. Oi duo tous menoun st'autokinito. O Domenico akouba to bratso tou sto parathiro. Ta matia tou  pisw apo ta gialia me xaidologane.
Anatrixiazw.Auto shmainei na eisai 13 xronwn? na ginese gunaika? Pote den eixa niwsei na me koitazoun etsi , pote ksana."

Alithinh istoria ths Anna Maria Scarfo

(malavona = kaka nea)

Ta fwta tou telous

Berdemena sunaisthimata.
Kati kourastiko kai epodino molis teleiwse, ala isws h exadlish pou mou dhmiourgise den me afinei pia gia tipota na niwsw enthousiasmo (kala isws gia ta rouxa sto ebay kai gia to taxidaki pou ekana athina), kai oso pernaei o kairos to gegonos oti paratirw ta sfalmata mou me kanei na apogoiteuomai. H epilogh pou eixa kanei , h apofash mou na zw pethenodas htan oti pio pathetic kai mizero exw kanei se auta ta 18 xronia pou zw kai anapnew.Isws an girize o xronos xana pisw na min ta elega auta...isws epidi den vionw pia autes tis katastaseis mou fenode gelies kai anousies, ala to thema einai oti pragmatika me eixan ligisei. Den eimai ikanopoihmenh me ton eauto mou... tha protimousa na mh me ligize tipota.kamia fora thewrw protimotero kiolas na  mhn eixa sinaisthimata na eixa apla axies mesa mou ...oi axies se enan anthrwpo einai to pan. Makari h kardia mou na htan apo sidero kai na mhn me akoubouse tipota sinaisthimatika TIPOTA.
Oso asxhmo kai an akougete......oloi autoi pou ferode poustika kamia fora arxizw na pistevw PWS DEN NIWTHOUN PONO , kai akoma kai an gia auto ton logo tous zilevw...den  xerw an tha ginomoun san autous.

Epaggelmaties pseutes:

Kanoun sigekrimena atoma parea (asinidith - sinidith epilogh thimatwn  )

kai se auta ta sigekrimena atoma lene ametrita aisxra psemata gia tous idious tous  tous eautous prospathodas na dhmiourgisoun TO TELEIO IMAGE ston koinoniko tous perigiro. Oi tupades autoi POLU KALA PERNANE nomizw....vriskode se mia parea gemato eukolodouleuta atoma pou tous thaumazoun GIA AUTO POU DEN EINAI, me apotelesma mia autopepithish 10' me arista to 10.

Ohhhh come on kai egw thelw tetia autopepithish :)

Astamatitoi simferodologoi

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ok ta paidia thn  douleia tous kanoun kai feugoun ti kalitero?Xaris esena i emena i ton filo sou apoktoun oti theloun /,mathenun oti theloun eukola kai grhgora.To mono pou kanoun einai na to paizoun panagitses xoris na apokaliptoun ta kinitra tous.

ipoula fidia

Apo ekei pou ola pane kala, pou nomizeis oti boreis na akoubiseis kapou se afinei na peseis, kai otan peseis oxi apla den tha se sikwsei ala tha gelasei mazi sou.Den xerw i ikanotita tous na kinoude me tosh kakia me kanei na pistevw pws den exoun ponesei pote tous kai oute paizei na niosoun pono.Den exoun anagh agaph h voithia. Pernane ton xrono tous kai ola sta arxidia tous

Den tha me dikaiologouse tipota an arxiza na feromoun etsi akoma kai an pistevw pws tha eperna to aima mou pisw gia pola,ala mesa mou pragmatika...den tha eniwtha kala... aporw pws niothoun autoi... pou me tosh eukolia kanoun kako ston alo xoris tipseis xoris tipota...kai tha skeutomoun pws kai egw exw ponesei....pws mou exoun anixei pliges se olo mou to swma, giati na to kanw kai egw? O ponos pou eniwsa den tha ginei xara otan paei se alo ena atomo.Kamia fora den xerw ti axizei.... iremia? i ekdikish? padws sigoura den tha ta evaza pote me kapoion pou den me exei enoxlisei...pote!