Πέμπτη, 11 Αυγούστου 2011

Ola ginode gia kapoio logo ? i o diavolakos paizei me thn distixia mas.


Thimamai pou imoun mikrh kai malona me tin aderfh mou polu asxima, ksulo , dagonies, bounies, travigma malion...kai sthn sinexia boliko klama kai vrisidia (oti kserame na leme tote p.x. ilithia itan to xirotero pou legame ala thigomastan poli otan to legame i mia sthn allh). H mitera mou ws sinithws katharize to spiti apo to prwi mexri to vradu...magireue douleve...kai en telh itan 2 se 1 (mama kai babas at the same time) kai mas ekane kai thn psixologo kai mas milouse bas kai mas ta vrei.~

Otan vevaia oi katastaseis ixan ftasei se ena simio opou h mama den borouse na xiristei mas pigene stin mana ths...kamia fora  mas pigene kai tis 2 mazi (giati i giagia ixe ton tropo tis na mas kanei kala) i mia mia (enalax sinithws )kai  koimomastan ekei ta vradia...

Pleon eimai poli apomakri apo kathe sigenh mou...ala an o papous mou zouse kai an h  giagia mou den eixe alzheimer oso megalh kai na eimoun tha pernousa ateliwtes wres mazi tous...

Kathe fora pou pigena sto spiti ths giagias mou htan ola sthn trixa...toso kathara ,eniwthes kalitera apo tin stigmh pou tha patouses to podi sou ekei, giati opws kai na to kanoume pada metraei to perivalon pou vriskese sthn psixologia sou.Sinexos prosfere....mou eftiaxne thn mia " lixoudia " meta thn ali ..xoris na tin niazi oti tha einai gia kabosh wra akoma panw apo ta tigania kai tis katsaroles...ola mou fenodousan toso omorfa se auto to spiti mexri kai o ixos apo to moteraki kathe prwi itan  toso glikos (lulz well itan XD).Auta ta mikra pragmata pou prosfere sinexos ,pou xeskizotan gia na mou ta prosferei itan toso simadika gia emena...Ektos apo emena pou prosexe h giagia san beba pou imoun prosexe mia beba akoma (thn aderfh mou ) kai alon enan bebi (ton papou mou ). O pappous mou itan pada ena kakogerasmeno adraki , pada mes ta neura , pada fonaze sthn giagia, htan gomeniaris panathema ton ...o gohs mh xesw (kala nai den itan kai h trelh mou adinamia opws fenete), e kai gia na mhn polilogo htan ena ritidiasmeno katharmataki pou den elege na kopsei to tsigaro eno itan me to ena podi ston tafo.Akoma kai etsi imoun to mono egoni pou sibathouse (ax ti kanoun ta gonidia ) , opote kathe fora pou ton evlepa na adimetopizei me asximo tropo thn giagia tou fonaza kai vrodousa kai to xeri sto trapezi (autos vevaia gelouse ....ala stamatouse amesws). H giagia htan polu kalos anthrwpos h kai poli malakas malon giati anexotan olo to ivreologio kai olo to katigoritirio xoris logo.Htan thriska , to domatio ths itan gemato ikonismata . GEMATO.... pio pola kai apo auta mias ekklisias kathe proi kai kathe vradi metanies (//DOING)(NAI milame gia polu thriska).polles fores thn koroideuame egw me thn aderfh mou gia auto ,ala ekinh pisteue pos o theos tha itan to mono atomo pou den tha tin prodide pote...kai oti kapia stigmh tha tin apalaxi apo tous psixologikous kai somatikous tis ponous.Gia na anakefaleonw htan mia gineka pou sinexws ginotan xali gia tin mana mou , gia ton apesio adra pou padreutike, gia emena, gia thn aderfh mou , kai mexri kai gia tous gitones , douleve olh mera kai ixe elaxisto diko tis xrono gia na dei apo autes tis sapounoperes pou toso ths aresan.Kamia fora xoris na exei kati...apo ekei pou htan mes 'thn trelh xara otan thn rwtousa " Giagia kala eisai ? "  , ekline ta matia tis ...xefisouse kai elege psithirista" Kala eimai ...kala" gia na mou dixei oti den einai..tote  elega oti paizei theatro...kai nai epaize.Ala twra katalavenw kai ton logo.

Mias kai h giagia prosfere sinexws ithele na niwsei kai auth kapia stigmh oti kapios niazete gia authn kai anazitouse thn prosoxh mas kai thn frodida mas.Oso thn thimame pada ekane teties siberifores .Perasan ta xronia...kai h giagia mou epathe alzheimer , arxise na berdevei diafora proioda magirikis, meta arxise na berdevei ta logia ths miteras mou , meta xehnouse mikra pragmatakia pou eprepe na kanei, pragmata pou  ths legame ta xehnouse mesa se 1 lepto (xirotera apo prin) , kai twra den anagnorizei oute emena oute thn aderfh mou oute thn mana mou ( mesa ths mono niwthei tin mana mou os diko ths proswpo).Katouriete panw ths den borei na perpatisei ,na piei nero monh tis oute na faei , oute na pei an zestenete an nistazei oute tipota,einai apla zodanh nekrh. Einai apla enas nekros anthrwpos pou i kardia tou sinexizei na xtipa.Evlepa olo auto pou travaei kai me epianan ta klamata, giati na ta travaei ola auta?htan toso kalos anthrwpos toso exipiretikos  , kai xerw oti kati tetia tha ta pathenes mono an ekanes kati kako giati ola girnane boumerang.An iparxei theos htan toso thriska, ton agapouse toso polu kai pisteue kiolas oti mono autos thn agapaei alithina, giati thn egatelipse etsi? giati thn afise na sapisei sto krevati ths?


Thn pigame se ena idrima giati   h frodida tis itan poli diskolh ...sto idrima auto htan o papous mou  .Se diaforetiko dwmatio , den ixan sinadithei pote, kai oi 2 xehasmenoi sto panemorfo klima tou idrimatos (giati ontos einai  ena poli  omorfo perivalon thalporis kai iremias gia kathe ilikiomeno)Episkeptomastan sixna kai tous duo tous ... kai oi duo sthn idia tragikh katastash...ta pragmata xiroterepsan otan  o pappous epese apo to banio kai xtipise thn lekanh tou.Xriastike xirourgio.Meta to xirourgio xanaepese...o organismos tou exadlithike meta to 2o xirourgio par'ola auta epestrepse sto idrima , xoris i giagia mou na gnorizei to paramikro(kai na tis to elegan  den tha katalavene tipota ).O pappous mou xaropaleve 2 meres akoma , meta to 2o xirourgio mexrh pou pethane, h mana mou den ton prolave pragma pou tin ponaei akoma kai twra.Otan eftase sto idrima kathotan kai tou milouse akoma kai an ixere pws" kimate".Otan vgike apo to domatio, i nosokomes ths eipan " H mitera sas ekane kati poli ediposiako , pou osa xronia doulevoume edw prwth fora to vlepoume...otan pethane o pateras sas auth evale ta klamata me ligmous xoris na einai brosta na vlepei , kai thn rotisame  ti exei kai mas edixe tin kardia ths legodas - kati edw...kati edw"

Akoma kai gia enan tetio anthrwpo pou tis eixe katastrepsei thn zwh eixe xoro sthn kardia ths...htan  enas aggelos..

Twra pou eimai 18 skeutomai kati pou me kanei poli xaroumenh giati telika gia ola iparxi h thetiki pleura...
Auth ti stigmh h giagia mou einai se ena xoro opou den voithaei....THN VOITHANE
den magirevei THS MAGIREVOUN
den zitaei prosoxh THS THN DINOUN APLOXERA
to atomo pou agapouse kai tin pligone einai nekro ALA AUTH DEN XEREI TIPOTA
eixe poles kakes anamnhseis DEN THIMATE TIPOTA
pigene panw katw gia na exipiretisi to spiti tis kori tis kai to diko tis TWRA DEN PERPATAEI ...tin exoun se ena anapiriko karotsaki kai kanoun aloi ton kopo.
thn ixan ekmetaleutoi oloi tous KAI TWRA einai se ena perivalon me xaroumenes giagioules pada xamogelastes pou tis pianoun tin sizitisi akoma kai an auth den borei na milisei....
malon an iparxei theos ekane auto pou tou zitise....tin apalaxe apo tin distixia ths...twra einai xaroumenh .... den gnwrizei oti exei provlima ...mono emis boroume na to doume...  :) isws na egine to kalitero gia tin giagia...


<3 Apo ta liga atoma pou me xehasan kai agapaw akoma...



ena video gia ilikiomenous pou kathe fora pou to vlepw thimame pos tha eprepe kai egw na ixa ferthei diaforetika





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  1. Prepei na sou pw pws siginithika pragmatika kai sto telos me to video eklapsa. Den exei nomhma alla sto lew pws mporw na katalavw ta sinaisthimata s hte me pisteueis hte oxi giati merikes katastaseis tis exw zhsei me paromoio tropo. Apo ta kalitera post s :)

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  2. Emena me siginei i katanoish sou epi tou thematos! se euxaristw pou exefrases to pws se ekane i anartish mou na niwseis

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  3. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ioxDDH3V18

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