Somebody tell me

There is a feeling I can't hide
It leaves me bored and black inside
There was a story I once knew
It started with me and ended with you

Somebody tell me
Where did we go wrong
This is not the world that I remember
I once believed
That we had a future
Now I'm afraid that I am not so sure

So this allegory for life
Predicts that passion turn to strife
You say what you get is what you see
I'm sorry if I disagree 

just to remember

Κρατάς αμυνες.. Και θέλεις να δείχνεις περισσότερο επιθετική για να μην ξανα πληγωθεις. Πολλές φορές πιστεύεις πως ζεις στον δικο σου κόσμο και κανένας δεν μπορει να σε καταλάβει απόλυτα ακόμα και όσοι σε ξέρουν πολυ καλα. Ακόμα και οι γονείς σου. Είσαι ρομαντική αλλα φοβάσαι να το δείξεις για να μην παρεξηγηθεις. Μπορεί να λες πως δεν σε νοιάζει η γνώμη των άλλων   . Αλλα η αλήθεια είναι πως δεν γνωρίζεις ούτε εσυ τον εαυτο σου ακόμα. Δεν ξέρεις ποια είσαι και τι θέλεις στην ζωη σου και χρειάζεσαι καμια φορα επιβράβευση απο τους γύρω σου ακόμα και όταν δεν είναι άτομα που σε ενδιαφέρουν, για να έρθεις ποιο κοντα με τον εαυτό σου. Ισχύουν όλα αυτα ;

To tipota einai arketo.

Glwsses sapismenes apo to idio tous to dilitirio,me potisan me ta farmakera tous logia isws thn alithia,isws ...kai na mhn htan omws....den to skeutika pote mou kala.
Xeria skeletomena, mou xeskisan thn sarka gia na dw ti eimai....h gia na dw ti nomizoun pws eimai....
Maties gemato misos h akoma kai fthono gia agnostous logous me xegimnosan kai  me ekanan na ligisw pali stin mizeria mou. San na eixan xilia kai na mou fonazan na katsw katw ekei pou anikw.


Ma den anikw ekei to gnwrizw....exw pola na pw kai na dwsw....Ekei pou zhtas mia eukairia thimase atoma pou pragmatika thn aksizan kai den tous dothike apo pouthena,ta katasparaksan ta agrimia kai ta paratisan sto pio krio xadaki exadlimena, gia na afisoun thn teleftea tous pnoi.

Tipota...ma tipota ston kosmo...den exw sunadisei pio skotino, pio kako, pio upolo apo to mualo enos koblexikou..enos pou den niwthei kala me ton eauto tou....
Pou tha se prosvalei gia na niwseis opws niwthei..Den xerw isws na ta kataferan kai na me gemisan kai emena koblex ...ala den exw dunamh ...na kanw ton alo na niwsei eripio gia auto pou einai (gia emfanish gia gnoseis gia to otidipote).

O koblexikos tha se xtipisei padou...akoma kai gia thn foni sou akoma kai gia thn patousa sou pou esu apo beba vriskeis xaritomenh...OXI OTI OLA AUTA PANW SOU EXOUN KATI ARNITIKO...ala autos prospathei polu na vrei kati opote me to na se xtipaei padou evelpistei na se petixei kapou.

Akoma kai an den se petixe sta pio pola...to ena apo mono tou nai, den einai tipota..ala ola mazi..se kanoun rako.Den ta exw akousei mia fora...2 fores...ala 500 giati tuxainei na mhn htan kai liga ta agrimia pou ekanan thn epithesh tous.

Arwstimene kosme ...me aidiazeis.....

Exei fwnh...den fwnazei ,omws sou milaei.... 

kai akou ti sou leei...akou !

Den fwnazei ala prepei na akouseis....gia esena....gia ton eauto sou ...AKOU.

Den fwnazei ...ala tha to kanei an xriastei...kai an to kanei....tha poneseis....

Akou!!!!!

(p.s. ....oses fores den exw akousei...mia mikrh fwnoula mesa mou pou me proidopoiei gia kathe atomo..... thn exw pathsei...pleon...den xerw an ematha...giati mathenw  simenei oti tis skepseis mou  tis kanw kai praxeis..pantws katalava ..... auto einai to mono sigouro.....)

in love with a criminal

He is a hustler
He's no good at all
He is a loser, he's a bum, bum, bum, bum
He lies, he bluffs
He's unreliable.
He is a sucker with a gun, gun, gun, gun

I know you told me
I should stay away.
I know you said
He's just a dog astray.
He is a bad boy with a tainted heart
And even I know this a'int smart

But mama im in love with a criminal

And this type of love

Isn't rational, it's physical

Mama please don't cry

I will be alright

All reasons inside

I just cant deny

Love the guy

Thelei dunamh na arnitheis ,na peis to oxi!

Me aformh ena peristatiko edw sto hrakleio kritis, stous dromous pou egw exw megalwsei thelhsa na grapsw.

Exei na kanei me mia kopela molis 16 xronwn , me mia didimh aderfh kai duo goneis pou den ediksan pote oti den niazode, alla kathe alo.Skeptomenh  loipon to peristatiko siniditopoihsa pws mia kai mono stigmh, monaxa liga deuterolepta arkoun gia na sou alaksoun thn zwh, ena "NAI" mia sou proxeirh apofash einai ikanh na se petaksei sthn akrh tou dromou etoimothanath , kai apo pantou pligomenh afinodas sou sidrofia mono skies.

Oloi zhtame kapia stigmh na viosoume thn diadikasia ths koinonikopoihshs, na gnorisoume kosmo , na niwseis arestos. Oxi aparetita na kaneis filous, apla na niwseis oti eisai simadiko melos se mia parea.Gia na mhn polulogw opws kai oloi oi ipolipoi etsi kai auth h kopela,oi anages tou kathenos diaferoun kai erxode kai ginode vasikoi paragodes gia tis epiloges mas.

Ena koritsi pou molis katafere na patisei gh ,arpakse thn zwh apo ta mallia.To sunaisthima tou kindinou thn ksegelase, thn ekane na pistevei oti zei entona enw sthn ousia riskare thn zwh ths.Auto pou ithele htan mia zwh gemato adenalinh.

Agoria me to dithen " cool" leksilogio , me thn katavathos dilh kai fthinh magia tous, mixanakia , hip hop sigrotimata , ipotithemena kone kai parees arkoun gia na ediposiasoun ena koritsi mikrhs ilikias pou toso laxtara na entaxthei se mia parea gia na parei dinamh.

Den argisan na ginoun protaseis gia xorto opou  diskola arnise otan niwtheis  pws pleon exeis ginei ena me tin parea kai i sinidish sou  exei papsei na einai dikh sou ....ala ... ths pareas.Oxi den htan eukolo na arnithei  ton kindino otan ta idia atoma pou auth thaumazei ton apaksionoun toso proklitika.

Isws mia fwnh mesa ths na ourliaze na stamatisei ala mallon san psithiros ixouse sta autia ths.

Afou pleon eixe papsei na niazete gia tous "aplous " gia authn kindinous, den distase na proxorisei se isxiriterous.

Prosfata to kalokairi afou idi eixe idi ethistei se diafores ousies dextike protash apo prwhn erwtiko ths sidrofo gia endoflevia xorigish iroinhs. H 16xronh kopela dextike... apo auto to "NAI" pou eipe alakse thn zwh ths rizika.Den htan omws oti den ths dothike h eukairia na pei oxi... ths dothike kai thn exase.To sigouro einai pantws oti den htan h monh eukairia pou ths parousiastike gia na pei oxi, h zwh htan eugenikh mazi ths, den thn petakse apo ta psila sta xamila xoris na to perimenei..To epidiokse, to kinigise.Den thn adikise h zwh.H 16xronh vrethike lupothimh gia megalo xroniko diastima opou akoma kai ota anoikse ta matia ths den eixe ton elegxo tou swmatos ths. Zouse evlepe akouhe,anepnaie egklovismenh se ena nekro soma.Adinatouse na kanei thn paramikrh kinish. O prwin ths ekmetaleuomenos thn katastash ths thn xrisimopoihse ws eidos plirwmhs gia agora ousiwn.Thn metefere krifa se 3 diaforetikes perioxes tou irakliou ths kriths...se 3 diaforetika spitia, opou sinaixizan na potizoun ton idi epivarimeno organismo tis me ales ousies  para thn thelish .Ala auth ti fora... DEN BORESE NA PEI TO OXI POU EPREPE NA EIXE PEI NORITERA.Thn viasan epanilimenes fores 15  atoma. Eksafanismenh 3 oloklires meres makria apo to spiti tis xoris ixnos zwhs na exei afisei pisw ths.

Thn 3h mera afou sinilthe kalese ton patera ths na thn mazepsei apo mia makrinh perioxh tou irakliou pou thn eixan paei kai adinatouse na girisei monh ths.Den eipe tipota to kratise mistiko gia ena mikro xroniko diastima merikwn imerwn.

H 16xronh apeuthinthike entromh sto astinomiko tmhma opou ekei dilose toxikomanhs.Katedwse olous osous thn viasan, akoma kai ton prwhn ths o opoios sthn sunaixia arnithike thn sumetoxh tou se olo auto.

Sta prwta kiolas xronia ths efivias ths katelikse swmatika kai psixika viasmenh. Mana , korh kai aderfh anagastikan na apomakrinthoun apo thn Ellada ,afinontas pisw filous , sinithies, tropo zwhs , spiti kai akoma xirotera ton patera tous pou emine pisw gia na doulepsei.

Anarotiemai poso  simadepse thn kardia oxi mias efivis, ena enos paidiou akoma, pou mono anagh apo agaph kai storgh ithele. Poso simadepse olh thn oikogeneia pou me toso diskolia thn eferan sthn zwh.

Einai dinaton h anagh sou gia agaph na sou kanei toso kako ?Pws zeis meta ?

Makari na eixes pei oxi.....se kathe sou epilogh...ala pistevw pws kamia dokimasia den mas dinete otan

o theos pistevei pws den tha thn adeksoume....osh dinamh boreis...euxomai olopsixa ta panta na pane kala stin zwh sou. Kai na vrethoun ta swsta atoma na se stiriksoun

Hitler

Poia.... ma....thelw na rwthsw ... POIA EIMAI EGW POU THA KRINW OTI DEN BOREIS NA  KANEIS TIPOTA KALITERO?
poso kakomathimenh eimai? poso rixos anthrwpos? les kai egw eimai kaliterh...egw as poume pou mporw giati den to kanw?  I tha htan alazoniko na pisteva oti to kanw?
Eimai toso kourasmenh...ala tha akousw , tha psaxtw... to kserw oti to kanw....
Pou kanw lathos loipon.....
Giati mesa stis simfores mou emfanizode kai ta dika mou sfalmata i adinamies....
Pistevw akradanta oti... kathe mas ebiria mas erxete epidi thn exoume anagh...epidi  kati exei na mas dwsei... Opote meta apo kathe ti pou me ponaei ....anarotiemai  ti lathos ekana auth th fora loipon? Giati sinevei auto?
Opou ftew na to ftiaksw,giati den thelw alo pono....
PONAEI... PONAEI POLU an den boroun oi aloi na paroun ton pono makria mou , tha ton parw egw.


Skeptomenh loipon ta provlimata mou, oi luseis fernoun alages, alages sthn zwh mou. Katorthosa na vgw apo to mauro kai na ftasw edw pou enas theos xerei pou eftasa..ala toulaxiston den kindinevw.


 Kai esu ti? Axriste-h pou na petheneis den tha kaneis tipota! Ilithie-a pou doulepses sklira osa xronia zeis dipla mou na katastrepseis  kai thn paramikri mellodikh pithanotita na ta pame kala.Pou prwta skotwneis esena...kai meta opoion einai dipla sou.Se katakrinw? auto niwtheis?
Kai auto pou niwthw egw? Den metraei? Mono h party sou exei xoro edw?

Thn paramikrh allagh den ekanes pote sou.etsi gia na pw oti re pousti toulaxiston autos o anthrwpos prospathise gia emena. Ala den aksiothikes na sikwseis ton kolo sou gia emena.Valta ston kolo sou ta prasina sou ta xartakia,den eixa auta anagh. TERAS.
Aidia gemizeis to mialo mou!  Pws boreis anenoxlitos na arazeis THN ARIDA SOU SIXAMENE-H otan ksereis pws toso kairo ola skata ta kaneis ...


Eunouxismeno anthrwpaki .......
Liph trefw gia esena.